You're just settling into the pain of knowing you've never been loved. That despite all your partners and your marriage, no one has ever cherished you.
My love, that doesn't mean that you don't deserve it. It just means that it hasn't happened yet.
You've been through so many hells. Dark places most people don't go. It's no surprise that you ended up seeking approval through sex; that you did things that society tells you should shame you.
Don't be ashamed. You were driven by pain.
You are not your past. You are Present Morgan. You're a woman who knows she deserves the sun & the moon & the stars on a chain. Focus ahead.
Your soulmate is out there. They will hold you. Comfort you. Make love to you. Learn every freckle. Trace every scar. They'll share all the beautiful experiences you've never had before.
And they'll love the wonder that comes into your eyes. The words that fall from your lips.
The Universe is full of love & intention.